Champagne Dreams w/ @tacouture at the @aloftdelraybeach
The last few years have been a roller coaster of emotions. I got married to the love of my life, John Chang, in my hometown of Santa Fe, New Mexico; surrounded by my closest friends and family. It was a dream wedding, accompanied by my actual soulmate.
A few months later, my mom, who had been suffering through and fighting Triple Negative Breast Cancer, died, in the most painful, traumatizing way I’d ever seen. It was devastating.
And just a few weeks ago, my dearest, sweet, brave Father-in-Law, passed, after having a routine hospital procedure. His body fought long and hard against kidney disease, and I believe it was time for him to let go.
If that weren’t enough, as time passed, without its powerful matriarch, my family fell apart. It became deeply fractured with each person taking on their own agenda.
When my family started to become toxic and dysfunctional, I felt profound sadness, loneliness and abandonment.
Knock, knock …
Hello, grief (my old friend,) I’ve been expecting you. Of course, niceties were not exchanged, instead, grief blasted its way into my life like a cannonball, shooting multiple holes into my already unstable constitution.
The wounds were so big, triage wasn’t even an option. It was all about survival. As a society, we don’t have an open healthy dialogue about grief and death; it tends to be more of a “white knuckle it” kind-of experience.
It felt like I was starring in Madonna’s famed music video for her song, “Ray of Light.” Life moving around me ever so quickly, but I was stuck, in one place, screaming in silence.
And while I’ve, indeed, lost so much these last two years, in turn, I’ve learned so much, as well, about myself, my life, what a friend should/should not be, the true meaning of “unconditional love” and in the midst of all it, what mattered/matters most, has bubbled to the surface of my “Champagne Dreams.” #2025
Presenting: “The Iris Dress” by #TAcouturemiami; draped tulle bustier and blue ombre ruched layered skirt, embellished with hand beaded flowers.
